#12 能量低落的時刻 low-energy mode
Life Snaps | October 2025 | felt tired and got a flu, trips to osaka and kyoto
一下子夏天就走了呢。毫無提醒，就這樣開始變冷了。
English version below.
days without energy
十月的下半先迎來了流感（應該是）。上班的同時感覺身體不太妙，但又覺得應該還好吧，忍耐著身體的寒冷（想說應該是冷氣加上天氣變冷）加上關節微弱酸痛、借了同事的毯子蓋、一邊覺得哇怎麼這麼累我該不會真的發燒了吧。撐到下班前往診所，結果護理師一量 39.1 度，說著「哇燒得有點高喔。」
因為醫生說這些症狀都跟流感蠻相符，建議休息五日，所以在家好好睡了幾天。睡眠充足加上飲食乾淨（醫生交代不能吃冰、糖、炸、辣的食物，還要十點睡），反而氣色跟皮膚變得超好。或許人生需要的也不過是如此簡單而已啊。
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在病程走到尾聲後，發現自己進到一個能量超級低落的狀態。對於好多事情都提不起勁、也沒有力氣向外和誰聯絡、做各種事情都變得很慢、呼吸也一直很難吸到肚子。不確定這個狀態跟流感有沒有關係，一邊發現並承認自己這個狀態、一邊內心還是有點譴責這樣的自己，但同時沒什麼力氣做很巨大的改變。所以在整理了一下桌子、或是處理一點點換季的衣服這種小事之後，就會在心裡默默給自己一些肯定。
希望自己目前至少可以好好睡覺、好好吃飯就好了。
osaka and kyoto with parents
連假期間帶著爸媽去了一趟關西，上一次拜訪這裡已經是十一年前了。這次去了好一些已經記憶稍微模糊的景點、拜訪了很多寺廟（好喜歡西芳寺）（撿到好多寺廟皮克敏）、開始收集御朱印。帶著爸媽搭大眾交通的自助旅行似乎比去年的克羅埃西亞自駕還累，或許是因為有更多自己無法控制的要素吧。
這次跟以前高中日本交流旅行時寄宿的女生再次碰面，相隔了好多年，也好久沒有好好更新彼此的消息了。高一的時候去他們家，他送給我的自動筆我現在還在用，他們學校送的帆布袋，現在都還是裝我的游泳用品。還記得那年他媽媽拿出一台章魚燒機，跟我說「每個大阪人家都有一台喔！」然後教我怎麼做，那個溫馨的氛圍我都還記得。
在晚餐時間互相交代了上次見面到現在這十年左右的人生，對於經歷了一些轉折的他我真的由衷讚賞，一直跟他說「你真的做得太好了」，期待他未來能有更多為自己著想的決定！從他口中得到的回饋也讓我覺得，或許我也有慢慢長成一個不錯的大人吧，是個能帶給身邊的人能量的女子（有餘裕的時候啦）。
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這次在京都逛皮件店的時候遇到一個台灣店員，後來寫了一張紙條回去給他，祝他工作順利、平安健康。本來很擔心只是自我感動，但他一拿到就說「我快哭了ＱＱ」的時候，總覺得自己應該有做對什麼吧。希望在海外的台灣人們都可以吃好睡好，不要感冒。
這次去關西的另一個心得是我真的太想念台灣的青菜了，熱的熟的蔬菜們。在日本外食要吃到熱的蔬菜真是好不容易，找了一餐吃溫野菜涮涮鍋，菜盤裡的蔬菜種類更加深了想念台灣火鍋的心情哈。我愛台灣高麗菜，嗚嗚。回國之後過幾天馬上去吃了，真是好好吃啊啊啊。
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覺得旅行、或者說去到一個新地方最有趣的事情是腦海中空間的存放，從一開始做功課只有照片、影片的樣子，到真正走進那個場域的空間感，兩者是非常不同的。會存放在一個五感體驗的回憶資料夾裡面，到下一次看著同樣的照片或影片時，加入那些新增的感受。
moments in october
上週末去看了 Dasutt 演出，一年不見，進場前都快忘記他們是現場這麼好聽、如此有穿透力的樂團了。這次沒有演我最愛的〈Photograph〉，但開場的〈D〉最後無歌詞的段落聽到眼淚快掉下來了。感謝音樂、感謝現場演出。
還是一樣很不擅長 talking 很可愛 
Photo credit: unknownhasayyo threads post 本月看了《一如既往》，真是有趣。講了從以前到現在，關於人性那些不變的事情。看的時候時常在心裡跟著一起點點頭。
我們在生活中很容易忽略到，某個程度的缺乏效率不但無可避免，甚至是理想狀態。
去當高中同學的手模，做了人生第一次美甲。看他操作各種步驟覺得好新奇，原來一個好看的甲面製程如此複雜，還有好多種酷酷的材料！沒想到磁鐵竟然可以成為造型跟亮光大小的要素，真的長知識。
在家養病的時候看了 webtoon 的《When Jasy Whistles》，中文版才剛開始連載，但發現英文版在去年已經第三季完結。人物們的成長好好看喔，是以巴拉圭神話為基底的，關於人和神、過去與未來、愛與付出的故事。
這兩個禮拜在練習吃飯速度再更慢一點，希望再少吃一點空氣進去腸胃裡面。
最近家教的心得：想養育孩子的人們，可以時不時試想一下如果哪天他跟你的期待差距很大的時候，你會怎麼辦呢？
這次在關西看到帶小孩的、騎腳踏車接送孩子的、超市採買的，還是幾乎都是女性；還有街上的女學生們似乎沒有褲裝的選項。還是會為這件事忍不住感到哀傷。
呼吸在看完物理治療之後又有調整回來了一些，身體真的是一個不間斷地動態平衡啊。希望看到這裡的你，十一月也能吃好睡好，健健康康。
low-energy mode
Summer just suddenly disappeared without any notice. It’s getting cooler in Taipei now.
days without energy
Caught the flu near the end of October. I first felt a bit weird at the office, but thought it wasn’t a big deal. Then I borrowed a blanket from my colleague because I was feeling cold, but I assumed it was just the cooler weather and the air-con. Later I started thinking maybe I actually had a fever, so I went to the clinic after work. The nurse checked my temperature and said, “Wow, it’s 39.1 — that’s quite a high fever.”
The doctor said all my symptoms matched the flu and suggested that I rest for at least five days. I stayed home and slept for three days. With enough sleep and a clean diet (the doctor said no sweet, icy, fried, or spicy food; and sleep at ten), my face and skin are in spectacular condition. Maybe that’s all we really need in life after all.
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When the flu was almost gone, I felt like I had no energy. I didn’t have any motivation to do much, didn’t want to reach out to anyone, had trouble breathing deeply into my stomach, and did everything very slowly. I’m not sure if it’s related to the flu. I observe myself and try to accept it, but still blame myself a little at the same time. With limited energy, I try to praise myself after doing small things — like wiping the table clean or organizing clothes for the next season.
For now, just eat well and sleep well.
osaka and kyoto with parents
During the holidays in October, I brought my parents to the Kansai area. It had been 11 years since my last visit. I went to quite a few spots that had already faded from my memory, visited lots of shrines and temples (I loved Saihoji so much), and started collecting goshuin. This trip with my parents using public transportation was much more tiring than last year’s road trip in Croatia. I guess it’s because there were more uncertainties and waiting along the way.
When I was in high school, there was a cultural exchange trip to Osaka, and I participated. At that time, everyone was paired with a local student and stayed at their house for a night. During this trip, I had the chance to meet that girl again. It had been so long since we last met, and we finally caught up. I still remember visiting her home in my first year of high school — her mom brought out a takoyaki machine, told me that every family in Osaka owns one, and taught me how to make them. The happiness and warmth from that memory still live in my mind. And I’m still using the automatic pencil she gave me that year.
During dinner with my friend, we updated each other on our lives over the past ten years. I couldn’t help but keep saying, “You’ve really done a great job” because of all the changes and difficulties she had faced. I truly hope that she will make more decisions for herself in the future. And through her eyes, I felt like maybe, as an adult, I really have become someone who can spread positive energy to others.
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We met a Taiwanese clerk in a leather store in Kyoto. After a while, I decided to write her a little note wishing her all the best with work and health. I was worried that it might be too much, but when she saw it and said, “Ohh I’m going to cry,” I felt like maybe I had done something good after all. Wishing all overseas workers good food, good sleep, and no colds.
Another thought from this trip: I really miss all kinds of hot, cooked vegetables in Taiwan. It’s really hard to find cooked (not pickled) vegetables in restaurants in Japan. We had hotpot once, and the vegetables made me miss Taiwanese hotpot even more. I love Taiwanese cabbage. I had it right after I came back, and it was SO GOOD!
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The coolest thing about traveling — or going to a new place — for me is how the place gets stored in my mind. From pictures and videos to actually walking in the space, the difference is huge. The experiences with all the senses are stored in little drawers in my head. Whenever I see photos or videos of that place again, the drawer opens, and the memories replay.
moments in october
Went to see Dasutt’s performance last weekend. I had almost forgotten how good they are after a year. Although my favorite song, “Photograph,” wasn’t on the set list, the last part of “D” as the opening song made my eyes wet. Grateful for music, grateful to live performances.
Read Same as Ever: A Guide to What Never Changes this month. It was really interesting — all about aspects of human nature that have stayed the same over time. I couldn’t help but agree with so many parts.
My high school friend is starting her nail business and was looking for hand models. I tried gel nails for the first time, and it was fascinating to watch all the steps. I had no idea beautiful nails required such delicate work, and I learned that magnets can actually shape the light and color on nail polish. Really cool!
During my sick leave, I read When Jay Whistles on webtoon. The Mandarin version just launched, and I found that the English version had already finished last year with three seasons. The growth of the characters is amazing. The story is based on Paraguayan mythology — about humans and gods, the past and the future, and love and giving.
I’ve been practicing eating slower lately, trying not to swallow too much air into my stomach these past two weeks.
Recent tutoring thought: if someone wants to raise a child, maybe they should first ask themselves — what if your child turns out very different from what you expect? What would you do then?
During the Kansai trip, I noticed again that the people carrying children, picking kids up, and buying groceries were still mostly women; and schoolgirls still don’t seem to have pants options for uniforms. I still feel sad about these things.
My breathing has become much smoother after my regular PT sessions. I guess the human body is always seeking its own kind of dynamic equilibrium.
Thanks for reading till the end. Hope you eat well and sleep well in November too.
Take care! 重感冒後身體真的會累累的
淳的十月和我的九月一樣！（水瓶宿命？
好好休息 🤍